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still so eh…. but what can u do im just very disappointed in u

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 20:20:18 -0500

still so eh…. but what can u do im just very disappointed in u

so i was offered to go to the tripleHoShow from my friend pedro he said he talked to his boss n got...

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 14:52:39 -0500

so i was offered to go to the tripleHoShow from my friend pedro he said he talked to his boss n got me a backstage pass ticket for free. thos it was nice of him im just not gonna go. cause i dnt wannna run into u two.. i just wanted to go with u n no one else.. but nope.. idk wht now.. all i do know is tht we need to talk

na

Thu, 13 Dec 2012 23:48:08 -0500

disappointed n alone

Thu, 13 Dec 2012 23:47:29 -0500

so this has been a shit week for me… where do i start?? idk…

well has to be some where huh??

so like i was supposed to go to a concert but nope not anymore… big let dwn on tht..

like i understand ur parents were mad tht u paid for the tickets but who cares they r urs n u get to decide who to go with… but owell i guess w/e makes them happy.

now im eh cause phone is shut off due o some shit in the past that cause me to missed bill…

n now to top it all off im craving fking drugs this week… i think its cause all the stress in life at this moment… n welllwhn i need u the most i dnt think ur there idk why i just dnt..

well hope the holidays end soon n the new year starts cause i want things to be in the past..

I hate that I question myself n question others.. shit doesn’t add up n a lot I’m times...

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 19:28:34 -0500

I hate that I question myself n question others.. shit doesn’t add up n a lot I’m times I dk get it like why dnt u just accept things… again feel lost,alone, and other things. Idk what to do where to go but ill keep on moving

So much had happen lately gust so fking much… its sad… the one I want to be with I dnt...

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 19:44:12 -0400

So much had happen lately gust so fking much… its sad… the one I want to be with I dnt think it will happen… I wish it would. I wish for a lot of things. But if we get to talk tomorrow no holds harass I want all cards on the table cause I just need to know why. U kno

So she came into my wrk today quite nice tho the dumbfk was outside…o if I saw that fker he...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 17:39:12 -0400

So she came into my wrk today quite nice tho the dumbfk was outside…o if I saw that fker he would get a nice fat pool or oil in his dumbass dace

Gonna let this day pass by fast n nt get bothered by anything so sing my lungs out I shall till the...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 10:55:23 -0400

Gonna let this day pass by fast n nt get bothered by anything so sing my lungs out I shall till the pain in my heart fades away

I feel lied to by the person I care for the most but why should I care…. Should just drop...

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 23:32:41 -0400

I feel lied to by the person I care for the most but why should I care…. Should just drop emotion

ahhhhhhhhh soo irritated right now like really!!!! ugh its been some time since ive hit this limit...

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:46:57 -0400

ahhhhhhhhh soo irritated right now like really!!!! ugh its been some time since ive hit this limit and man o man i know i said something i shouldn’t have but fk it idc right now. dick head deserved it in my opinion. god some people are jkust kids i dnt get this shit.. fker shouldnt even be living there ugh. that lil prick

man took a while to find out how to not show to twitter

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:44:49 -0400

man took a while to find out how to not show to twitter

ugh

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:38:00 -0400

so ight now engaged in a convo with what has to be the most sry excuse for a man alive in this world. hes pushing my limits might say something i should t soon but who da fk cares

back on tumblr

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:29:00 -0400

man its been a min since i was last on this site lol need to start bloggin again make life easier for me

Man… I never ever would think that through all the struggles we have over come an all the pain...

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 03:18:26 -0400

Man… I never ever would think that through all the struggles we have over come an all the pain we both have endured would things be like this… it makes me really sad because I truely would give anything in the world just to be with u… it sucks that we have become so far but I want to bring us closer. God I hate this.. it truely sucks nt having u with me… I feel so empty inside n everysec of every day u are all that I can think about. But… idk… idk what to do.. I truely love u n kno that I will never get over u. I thought u would always be there for me but u gave up on me. U left me in the time I needed u the most. N now.. u let ur ex move in with u n yea.. its just disappointing… idnt get it.. I hate how I can love u so much but yet it feels like its been one sided for god knows how long. All in all in the end I still wanna be with u… why.. why do I feel like this.. why can I forgive u for everything u do that hurts me but yet u can’t forgive me for one little thing… I’m so lost… please… i … I… I wish u were here to help me

Its been a long ass time since I wrote one of these but yea a lot has happen to where now I just...

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 05:06:41 -0400

Its been a long ass time since I wrote one of these but yea a lot has happen to where now I just need to vent about everything… So this week I swear has to be the worst week of my shitty life… I mean hey wrk is going great for once I’m getting recognized for my job n shit but still its nt enough… So this week starts out with me running into my ex katie.. that right there is a bad sign…so party with her n her friend wasent that bad. Untill later I got drunk with katie n yea… that was nt good at all. I hate myself sooo much for hooking up with her… god its soo wrong in so many levels. Inculding the fact I was kissing her friend there too ugh its not right… god i dnt even know why I smoked weed again….. fml… that night was just horrible… to follow it up I lost someone very close to me too this week….

I miss u alicia I really do. N I thought it wasent gonna hit me this hard I really did considering all that has happen but its harder thn before. U kno I never can stop loving u I kno that now n I am truely sry for causin u pain through words. Id give anything tho just to hold u in my arms again just for a secound. This whole nt friends thing is killing me. I serioulsy feel so alone so lost with out u there. U will always be my beautiful snowlepord n I hope one day our paths will cross again because the connection we have is soo different thn anything I have had with others. I truely believe that u r my one n only.

So follow that up I ran into another ex….. well more like a fling from a long drunken night… god I was stupid…she was ugh n yea a lil crazy in the head thankfully she just bitched me out n left it at that but still….

Finally I ran into n old flame inwhich yea I felt stupid around her n awkward cause of how we left things. still she’s a good friend but it did hurt to see tht a feeling came up for her n thn gone in an instant because just through that short lil talk there was no connection. N to top it alll of I think I made a micro fraction in my leg yesturday at the gym cause I was pushing myself too hard n ended up nt being able to walk without feeling pain in my leg… that’s the last thing I need to happen… the gym with running helps me escape my emotions n thoughts but nope nt anymore just causes me more pain…. thankyou life for yet again fking me over…. Is it so hard to be happy? Because others make it seem easy n I can’t seem to do it…….. I just…..I just kno that right now I’m scared n lost… I feel alone but know that I am nt… same time I feel like I should attempt to pic up the mask that people want me to wear n move along in life hiding from who I am. I gues that’s all for tonight. Ty for hearing me out tumblr

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Sun, 26 Feb 2012 02:48:36 -0500

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Sat, 25 Feb 2012 18:58:51 -0500

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So its funny how I can always help others through their problems but I can never seem to sovle my...

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 03:16:22 -0500

So its funny how I can always help others through their problems but I can never seem to sovle my own… I need some long over due help. Need some hope to be brought backinto my life… I’m…I’m just so lost right now… n I feel so alone n empty… I need something to get me out of this hole… just 1 bit of light to break through my dark room that would bring me hope. but I should kno better thn that… its not gonna happen… people always say the best way to help urself is to look aturself in the mirror n tell urself what u see. I can tell u what I see… I see emptyness…failure…pain…saddness… lonesome… confusion..depression… and to someit all up nothing. I see nothing… isn’t that great I see nthn therefor I am nothning right??? That’s all I ak a waste of space… I was asked once what would it take to make me happy… I really dnt kno… what would make me happy?? Cause I dnt know I really dnt n it kills me not to kno.. :,((((!!!

So its funny how I can always help others through their problems but I can never seem to sovle my...

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 03:15:52 -0500

ugh...

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 02:43:00 -0500

god too much shit for one day… fking hellish day for me n just so much shit going on idk anymore…. can find my god dam headphones so i can listen to my music right now whn i really need it…. fml…… its gonna be one of those nights.. so much on my mind….. i really wanna just shatter in to a millon pieces right now..